Like vocal fry-up talk

Got me through another fab'lous linguistic earbook:  Wordslut: A Feminist Guide to Taking Back the English Language Hardcover [illustrated 2019] by Amanda Montell [buy]. Maybe books about language, in contrast to books about maps or oil-paintings, are okay about losing the illustrations: because they can win on the phonics. I've had my gripes about the quality of pronunciation on some ear-books in the past. But here voice-actor [and B.A. Harvard Linguistics] Laurence Bouvard is excellent.

cw: This book full four lttr word: Word Slut girl NORM Patr Arch . . . lads.

Sometime in 2o2o, I signed up with MetaFilter after lurking there since before the Birth of Blob. I joined so that I could join in the robust to-fro in the comments. Very early on, I inadvertently rose someone's hackles and got called out. It was shocking to realise they <sob> don't like me, but a) it was a lesson that not everyone will like each one of my opinions b) I was thereafter more cautious about shooting from the lip. 

That sorry anecdote is relevant to current Blob . . .
In response to to a post about a multi-author scientific paper I had said something like "these lads would be more credible if they got their stats right" and Hackles asked " . . . and how do you know all the authors are male?". Now I could have got all fighty and answered "because all their first names code Male" or "in my culture "lads" is a sex-neutral or sex-irrelevant generic collective noun for, like, people". But I wisely buttoned my comeback because I twigged that a de-rail inquisition about how come, Bob, in your culture "lads" is accepted as a collective even if all members are women was going to leave me with a red face and be massive fail as a representative of my culture. Because it is hard to imagine, let alone recall, a case where a female-coded term would be used for a collective including some of both [or indeed all] sexes: "hey girls, who's for skulling pints tonight" . . . I don't think so!

Montell's book is full of that sort of thing. Getting on a righteous charger to do battle with the systemic sexism which runs through, even under-pins, our language. Weak, diminutive, submissive, hedging, terms get attached to women. In the 13thC "gyrle" was any child or small-small creature; but over the next 200 years 'girl' became inappropriate for rough-tough boys and also extended its range to encompass any unmarried young women; and later sweetheart. And while we're about it, be careful whom you address as Sweetie.

There is a whole chapter on vocal-fry, up-talk and hedging. These speech patterns are only noticed when mobilised by women, and hoo-boy does it rile up the blokes who notice. The thing about language is that we use it every day, and some every day normal words are used heedless of their meaning or etymology. We may consider some people are gormless, but nobody in standard English nowadays has pots of gaum [canny understanding] about them.

NORM, Non-mobile older rural male
SOFA, Sedentary ould fella anthropoid 

Ringstone with Rowan

The Ringstone looking well after 5000 years. Picture from 09:40 11Sep24. The time-of-day is important because oblique sunshine picks out the work of human hands to best effect. 2024 was particularly good for the fruiting of rowan = mountain-ash = Sorbus aucuparia so adds a bit of extra colour to the composition.

More than a passing glance? This picture as a jigsaw. https://jigex.com/XC874. I am quite the fan of Jigsaw Explorer. It takes me about 20 minutes to complete a 100 pc [default size - other piece-counts are available] puzzle. Which I justify as giving my spatial awareness neurons a bit of a gallop:lest they waste away, like. When I started, the task might take +30 minutes.

A while back I added this picture to Wikimedia Commons, when they had a drive for pictures of local heritage.

Well 'ard

As part of my very expensive education, I spent most Thursday afternoons playing at soldiers in the CCF = Combined Cadet Force. It was fashionable to be disaffected and cynical about these activities and so it was largely a waste of my time. My older brother otoh joined the naval wing of the CCF and got in some sailing and knots&splices; although he/we were getting that anyway at home. The Brother also practiced to become a crack shot and won a medal for target shooting at Bisley. I'd like to say that I was a dedicated and principled peacenik but I wasn't - I just wanted to be let drift on alone. I was born 10 years and 10 days after the D-day and we played at being Spitfires [budda budda budda] and Messerschmidts, in the same way as kids-today do Call of Duty. Cleaning, carrying and firing a rifle was irrelevant as a life-skill. 

That-all notwithstanding, I seem to read a lot of military books! The latest was The Pilgrim, written and read by Colin Maclachlan. I don't intend to read the other three of these hard-chaw memoir clones.  I've had some success with browsing the Recently Published section of Borrowbox's ear-book library.  With exquisite good timing luck, I've been able to snag something before everyone else realises it's available. Take The Pilgrim: I borrowed it on 21 Jan, read its 5½ hours in 5½ days, and returned it asap; it is now not available until the middle of August! Maybe there are a bunch of young lads who want a reality check from killing terr'ists on their computers. 

Young Colin grew up in a broken home in Scotland, alternately ignored or thumped by his mother and step-dad. She took him by the ear to the recruiting office as soon as he turned 16 and left him to the tender mercies of the army. That was a bargain - he got less physical abuse in barracks than at home. As a self-sufficient, smart and competitive chap, he did very well. Not many of this peers had the skills or aptitude for book-learning, so young Colin was able to ace the tests as well as make his own bed and look neat and tidy. At 23 he was the youngest person to pass through the gruelling selection process for the elite special forces SAS 22 regiment. Outside of work, he has current partner, an ex, 3 kids, a couple of much younger sisters and good mates all over.  

Since at least the days of the Cardwell [1870] and Childers [1881] army reforms, recruitment and retention has been a perennial problem for the British [and most other] armed forces. 2025 saw applications to the Irish Defense Forces up one third [⅓] compared to the previous years. But loads of the applicants were rejected and more quit before training completed: that is a management failure [or check hazing below?]. In today's army, there is a concern that soldiering is all boredom and blanco and not for the Youth of Today: all hopped up on their violent computer games. Foreign travel is no inducement for kids who can fly to Lanzarote for what they get from the dole. It's a huge dilemma for Western democracies: there are definitely external threats to our cosy capitalist hegemony. Contrary to the fantasies of keyboard warriors, warfare has not reached drone vs drone exclusivity: all operated from bedrooms bunkers. The community needs some fit, equipped, trained [young] people to protect the old and weak and the infrastructure of the state or its allies, in extremely adverse conditions. So, the community needs to incentivize those who take one for the team. 

Soldiers are no longer inter-changeable, expendable standers-in-line who have been de-sensitized to follow orders, even at the risk of their own lives, even if they seem batshit, even when given by a known shit-head. Modern equipment requires skill to operate and maintain and that requires training. Some of those skills are transferrable to civilian life. Part of the package has to be a GI bill for those who have served time: the community must pick up the tab for college or collage or apprenticeships after military service. Meanwhile, we need to pay soldiers respectable = respectful wages and feed them really well. Also, increments to encourage promotion and taking more responsibility. And no more hazing: that doesn't mean making military training a soft touch; it's not for wimps or shirkers but bullying is dis-respectful and . . . counter-productive. And here's a novelty - what about some respect, relationships and courtesy training RRCT that might help recruiting and retaining dates, partners, spouses for really great sex.

As part of Bob's recruiting drive, here are the requirements for joining the Irish Defense forces.  

The girl who read while walking

My pal Djerzi urged me to read Milkman by Anna Burns . . . as well as Memoir by John McGahern. After Memoir , I duly read Milkman: despite getting weak with a sense of dread about 100 / 350 pages in. Wot next:  Matrix? Memoir, Milkman, Mountolive? Mudbound? .

The narrator is MiddleSister, younger than FirstSister SecondSister and ThirdSister; but older than three WeeSisters who are creepily & engagingly knowing and precocious at 6, 7 and 8. There are three brothers in the sibship, at least one already dead from The Political Problems. The book is fiction but it is true that Anna Burns grew up in the Ardoyne, a Nationalist ghetto in North Belfast. Burns adopts peculiar euphemisms or alternative reality to distance her tale a bit from the primitive, repressed, sectarian reality that were her lived experience in the late 70s. Renouncers [of the State] and Defenders [of the state] live "on the other side of the road" from each other and have long ago stopped talking. But they are over there to be demonized by parents and paramilitaries as dangerous boogie-men. The archaic coded formal language and designations in Milkman conjure up Old Order Amish if not The Handmaid's Tale: handles like SecondSister, FirstBrotherInLaw, MaybeBoyfriend emphasise that nobody is an individual but each is defined by their relationships. This web of relationships form the community. Endogamy is as normal as it might be in a remote village in Uttar Pradesh with no cars but surrounded by wild beasts.

The fact that the narrator is dating Maybe-Boyfriend from another Renouncer ghetto is viewed with suspicion when there are so many suitable boys round the corner.  But she has already weirded out her community and set in train a firestorm of rumour, fantasies and lies because of her habit of reading while walking [it's often 19thC classic fiction, incl Walter Scott R]. In real life, our Dau.I the Librarian did this from the age of six into adulthood but nobody in Renouncer circles would dream of doing so. It's basic self-preservation: while reading, your situational awareness is damped to nil. In a world riven by car-bombs [whc prev], razzias [whc prev] and sit-in-judgmental nut-jobs from your own side: dreaminess can be fatal. 

At one point two of the older girls try to warn their wee sisters about a family member who is known [but not acknowledged - that would make life too easy] to be a bit pervy " . . . if he tries to lure you in on the pretext of anything - science, art, literature, linguistics, social anthropology, mathematics, politics, chemistry, the intestinal tract, unusual euphemisms, double-entry book-keeping, the three divisions of the psyche, the Hebrew alphabet, Russian nihilism, Asian cattle, twelfth-century Chinese porcelain, Japanese unit . . . [don't be fooled and try not to stay in the same room]". If this seems a rather broadly eclectic catalogue of wee sisters' interests, note that Narrator reads bedtime stories to them from Hardy, Kafka and Conrad. In a way the Wee Sisters are a metaphor of hope for a different future: despite having grown up under the same strictures and all under the age of 10, they are free-thinkers and curious about the world beyond their own ensiloed people.

As in McGahern's childhood, a generation earlier and South of the border, gender=sex and their binary lives and tasks are rigidly coded. Boys don't cook, unless they're gay; girls have to take it on the chin, fist-style; women may be the sole-bread-winners but none of the men at home will hoover through. Everyone drinks though, which doesn't help in matters like respect & dignity . . . nor a balanced budget. Men are In Charge, as they think, until they transgress into the domain of women. Then a delegation of outraged Lysistratas will soon tell them to fuck right off and go back to playing with their guns and tonka toys put them right. It sure is hard to Other your own Mother.

Spoiler: some of the Principals find their true selves and true love in the end. But so much collateral damage along the way.

Mission Custard-possible

In the run up to Christmas, I was tasked to "Get custard, Dunne's Own will do", so I did; indeed I bought 2 cartons because who's counting?. Turns out we didn't need custard over Christmas but pies were made in January and soon enough both cartons had been consumed. As old people with better than average discretionary income, we don't have to behave like impoverished students anymore: when the choice was either a Christmas tree or one bottle of Ruffino chianti. This last Christmas, in a crowded and getting crowdeder Dunne's stores, I snagged 2x Dunne's Own TetraPak Custard which was piled high-and-deep beside the dairy section. With better quality control, less stress, and 20/20 hindsight, I would obvs have bought Dunne’s Sweet and Creamy Fresh Custard [as R] instead . . . at 6x the price but what the heck it's Christmas. Here's the price + ingredient data comparison:

Ingredient	Bird’s Tetra	Dunne’s Tetra	Dunne’s Fresh
Such much?	€6.00/kg	€1.00/kg	€6.00/kg
Milk, skimmed	✓	✓ Reconstit	✓ Irish
Buttermilk	✓	✓ Reconstit
Cream			✓ Irish 10%
Sugar	✓	✓	✓
Water		✓	✓
Starch	✓ Modified	✓ Mod maize	✓ Mod maize
Palm oil	✓	✓
Milk Powder	Whey	✓	✓
Flavoring	✓	Natural	Vanilla
Guar Gum			✓
Rapeseed Oil			✓
Carotenes	✓	✓	✓
		Paprika	Exhaust. GVB

Apart from the price, Bird's and Dunne's tetrapak custards look very similar. Dunne's save transport costs at some stage by shipping in powdered milk and buttermilk and reconstituting it with factory-local water.They also bling up the carotene colour with a few drops of paprika extract. Dunne's Fresh otoh go patriotic with Irish skimmed milk and a good jolt of Irish cream (rather than by-product bulker buttermilk). And none of that furrin [and ecologically disastrous] palm oil. Although the rapeseed oil is not Irish there is less of it than in Tetrapak Palmland. I guess the guar gum [a stabiliser found in ice-cream and other processed foods] compensates for rapeseed oil's food-engineering deficiencies. And it's also got "Exhausted Ground Vanilla Beans" which sounds a bit like roadkill.

Another late entry in the custard stakes [I'm not going to rejig my table!] is Avonmore Luxury Fresh Custard - which apparently we did eat at Christmas. It is yet more pricey at €7.00/kg and doesn't have guar-gum or palm oil: (Milk; Cream (34%); Water; Sugar; Skim Milk Powder; Modified Maize Starch; Natural Colour (Mixed Carotene); Flavouring; Vanilla Beans). Gotta say that sounds worth the 18% €xtra in the fresh custard stake.

But heaven-a-mercy how hard can it be to, like, make custard from a carton of last-forever* Bird's custard powder? For starters it has waaay fewer ingredients: Maize starch; Salt; Colour (Annatto = Norbixin); Flavouring. If you follow the instructions (heat 2 tbsp of powder, ditto sugar and a pint of milk) it comes in at ~€1.60/kg: more expensive than Dunne's Tetrapak at €1.00 but much cheaper than branded or fancy custard. Still cheaper if you're think you're on minimum wage in your own kitchen and add the 5-10 minutes extra prep [mix mix stir stir heat heat] time. [* for some definitions of forever: I made up a generous double portion of Bird-dust-cust from a container marked Mar 2023 - it was fine]

Purists can make 'custard' using corn-flour at €2.60/kg rather than custard powder at €8.10/kg but that will only bring down the cost to ~€1.30/kg for an off-white sweet paste the consistency of custard but the wrong colour and no vanilla notes.

It's been a while, but I've done many prev of these food engineering ingredient comparisons - Mince Pies -  Cakes - Pot pies - Powdered milk - Pizza - Tarte au Chocolat - Sausages - Sou'wester cake - Spice burger.

Arrangement in Grey and Gray

We have tried adulting, accommodation division, before. Last time [late Nov 2024] it was left to me to book a room in a hotel, I assumed there would be a bath-tub and was disappointed. Hotels are so eye-watering expensive that y'have to squeeeze them for value. And soaking in a hot bath is one way to Win. 

In mid-Jan we were short-noticed [as always by such events] by a funeral in Dublin. It turned out that the Talbot Hotel Stillorgan runs a Sunday special "dinner bed and breakfast for two @ €190". We could have done it cheaper: getting up in the dark, driving 160km, the last part of which would be in the rush-hour, finding somewhere to park. But we chose to adult it with Talbot. That meant driving up country on a sunny(ish) Sunday afternoon "hello trees, hello sky." The funeral mass was an 8 minute walk from the hotel, so we solved the parking problem also.

I wasn't going to get caught w/o tub a second time and was re-assured to see a🛁emoji in the small print of the Sunday Special. Gotta say that the corridors upstairs have a First Person Shooter vibe. The only coloured objects were a pair of fire extinguishers where the corridor jinks L and then abruptly R and then again left L. I noted that the extinguishers were of two different shapes/sizes. Do I feel any confidence that I would know how to operate either? I do not! I did notice quite a lot of small print but reading the instructions when things are hotting up seems too little too late. I guess the answer is run like buggery leave the premises as smartly as possible without promoting panic.

We dropped our bags, shook out our funereal duds, and repaired downstairs for our "free" dinner. Which was fine. We tipped based on the full value of the meal, not just the extras [dhrink!] for which we paid the servor. Then I drew my bath:

Which was A Task, equivalent to making a strange rental car Go. At home we have a bath with a plug, on a chain, and a hot tap and a cold tap. A child of seven can manage it. This child of seven-ty was Baffled @ Talbot. Clearly the silver disc at the bottom of the bath was the plug . . . but how to open /close the orifice? Wearing my BigBoy ManOfTheWolrd pants I recognised the top disk as a hot&cold mixer tap. _Eventually_ without calling Reception [✓]; but not without pulling the front of it clean off in my hand [χ] - ooops; I worked out that the middle disk was both the water inlet AND the plug-cover opener [quarter turn anti-clockwise does the trick]. Very stressy, I needed a long hot bath after my exertions. If you are wearing your Antonioni's BlowUp pants you'll see me reflected in the tap disk.

Title a reference to Whistler's Mother. Also: gray is darker than grey [prev].

Right from Wrong

 I started my first academic job in October 1983 = a long time ago. As with other work, I was usually at my desk some time before 0900hrs. This gave me time to chat to Eileen the woman who cleaned the rooms on my corridor. Over the next couple of years we got to be good friends although I also got to know rather too much about her circumstances and family. Her son Stephen was working as a lorry-driver and happy-out to set his own times and make good money. By Eileen's account, he had been precociously brilliant in primary school particularly with maths but he was also a handful: always jigging around in class and being mildly, sometimes charmingly, disruptive. Years later, Stephen and Eileen were watching a TV documentary about the epidemiological connexion between ADHD and tartrazine = E120 = Yellow 5b. "Blimey Mum, that was me!?!" If there'd been less Fanta in the fridge he might have gone to college like me and be driving a particle accelerator not a truck. The stars had to align for a working class kid to get a BSc; but those were the days when third level education was effectively free to users.

Jacob Dunne grew up on an estate in Nottingham with even fewer advantages than Stephen. We met him a month ago talking about Prison Reform, Masculinity, Restorative Justice . . . and killing a random chap with an unlucky punch. After that interview, I reserved his book Right From Wrong (2021) in the library and read all 200+ pages on Twelfth Night. The advantages of being retired include being able to spend a Monday on the sofa reading a book pausing only to get more logs for the fire and tea for concentration.

I dithered about starting the book for a couple of weeks because a) I had other library books to read b) I had the 1 hr exec summary of his life story already c) there's only so much gritty Northern working class grind a chap can handle. But once I started, it was hard to put it down. Despite many failings on the copy editor front: p.3 "Widford has a more gentile, village feel . . ." p.63 "that wasn't not the case". And some tired repetitive phrasing: rumours / news always spreads like wildfire and on the weekends everyone lets their hair down. 

As a child in primary school Jacob was bright and engaged when he chose to be. But, like Stephen, he was easily bored by school and tended to be distracted and drifty. Things plunged into the abyss academically in secondary school but got exciting, and not in a good way, out on the streets: drink, bare-knuckle fights, vandalism, theft, dealing. 

Remarkably, after jail, with help from the probation service and social services and some lucky breaks with the media, he restarted secondary schooling ten years late. He is smart and articulate, so aced exams and was sponsored to University by The Longford Trust; getting a 1st class honours degrees in . . . Criminology. Twelve years on from prison, he's elbowed a rung on the property ladder, and married with two kids. He's learned from his journey and is determined to give back to the community with raised (and failed) him. Talking a capella to schools, TEDx, prisoners, prison officers, the telly: initially pro bono, latterly for money like all the other experts / pundits / grifters [pick whatever suits your prejudice] on the circuit. 

One of his points is that education and training is largely irrelevant to the skills needed to thrive in life and in the workplace. A bit like me being ace at The Calculus in school and college but never using those tools at any time during 40 years as a professional scientist! You can get a permanent pensionable job as a prison officer after only eight weeks training. Only half a day of which explicitly addresses mental health! The square logo is an aide memoire for those in an asymmetric relationship: officer/prisoner;  teacher/student; parent/child. 

• to is when power tells the dispossessed how things will be.  
• My way or the highway thinking gets people's back up and is therefore counter-productive
• for is when power tries to be kind by helping people to the correct answer / behaviour / solution
• but cutting the apron-strings is an essential part of adulting  
• with is usually better: through example, empathy and tough love, the dispossessed are given the chance of sorting it out for themselves
• it can be work and requires a long game to break the cycle of learned helplessness 
• not is worse than everything: when power walks away with "I taught them but they didn't learn" and "they're too ugly, disrespectful, stupid, angry, other to learn anyway".

I had a rush of aha! with this characterization: in class at The Institute we all learned more and better when I, nominally the adult in the room, professed to know-not the answer. And every year on my watch, every kid in the room got to be autoclave liaison officer ALO at least once.

Victim-blaming is much easier and cheaper than fixing the systemic societal issues that generate victims. Breaking generational cycles (of anger, despair, violence and disrespect) is hard.